I'm still in my dream, wouldn't want to wake up. Finally, escape from the depressing past. I wanted a new start. A new life, to restart everything again. To restart a life, without past, without sorrow, without the painful memory. A life that only represents the present me, people who never know about my past, who never question about my past, who never bother who am I in the past. If I'm allow to, I would leave that life behind, be it happy or sad memories, the past that makes me unsure if I'm smiling still because I'm happy, or simply is the action from the facial muscles.
I did something terrible, making the situation even unbearable. Making myself more enemies. The wounded heart, hurting by the lies and betrayal, who can bear? The wounded heart, hurting by someone you've truly given your heart to, who can bear?
hey, I wish somewhere in the future, when I scrolled back this post, I can smile and say, it's finally over. I will tell myself, the agony has gone, the lifelessness has passed, the tears has dried up, the aching has stopped, but the love persists..