Sunday, August 13, 2017

澳洲2.0

这是自己的决定,自己的坚持,自己的相信,快要一个月还依然站立着的我。

不敢埋怨太多,不敢伤心太深,有多少人想要到澳洲却还没有得到那个机会,我除了感恩,哪有资格难过。

Sunday, February 26, 2017

19个月以后

依然老毛病又犯。

现在的我,其实很喜欢现在的我。因为现在的我,比较以前,减少了情绪化和少女梦,容易处理多了。少了半夜三更不睡觉强说愁(除了今晚),目标在学业,在服侍,爱的源头唯独上帝,好处理的多了。

原来,终究要有那一根拔不出来的刺,才会学乖。

以为放下了,原谅了,结果心又痛了。痛得好结实。

Monday, October 31, 2016

想念的你

很想很想,那个奋不顾身的你。
那个不计所有的你。
那个又哭又笑情绪化的你。
那个感情胜过理智的你。
那个很相信永远真的存在的你。
那个愿意付上一切代价的你。

Sunday, October 23, 2016

想念写文字的我

所以又跑来这边乱涂乱写了,哈哈。
昨天因为一些原因翻回了以前在部落格写的一大堆东东,结果自己的文字让自己吓了一跳,原来我写的还挺不错哦,哈哈,让我自恋吧!毕竟对自己的文字并没有完全的信心。

我喜欢文字背后的心情,然后读着读着,鼻子就酸了,那样的文字。
突然很感恩,因为即使没有随笔就有一首好诗的神仙般造诣,但是至少比较起音乐,文字创作抒发心情要简单得多。

从前从前的我,崇尚散文,那种一堆生字新词,读上百次都未必能了解全文的散文。长大了却发现,语言最终的目的是要明确表达。所以,不再追求新词汇。因为,只想要用最简单,最真实的文字,表达最明确的心情。追求的境界,就是用最短最明了的句子,表达一百零一种情绪。


Sunday, July 3, 2016

回到平静

。因为想要留着最后一张帖是正面的。


因为有种感觉我好像又会再把这个部落格抛一边了。你们要为我高兴,因为那证明,终于我又站起来了。

Thursday, April 28, 2016

奇怪的话

我想要写一些很奇怪的文字,因为脑袋有太多奇怪的画面,幻想,零碎的记忆掠过,掠过,很快速地掠过。。
然后很多个晚上,我会有些很奇怪的念头,会半夜突然惊觉自己依然醒着,然后迷迷糊糊很努力在想应该要怎么入睡,是真的在想,似乎睡着需要一个特定的方程式,然后会想破头,突然从迷糊状态清醒过来,发现自己有了一些奇怪的像是潜意识,又像是梦,然后再渐渐地入睡。

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

女汉子我来也

最近朋友发了几个漫画图给我,虽然不想承认,但这形容却太贴切。决定借来分享。

来源: https://www.facebook.com/annieyew3101/posts/538061903033160


Tuesday, January 26, 2016

beautiful dream, lasts?

I'm still in my dream, wouldn't want to wake up.

Finally, escape from the depressing past. I wanted a new start. A new life, to restart everything again. To restart a life, without past, without sorrow, without the painful memory. A life that only represents the present me, people who never know about my past, who never question about my past, who never bother who am I in the past. If I'm allow to, I would leave that life behind, be it happy or sad memories, the past that makes me unsure if I'm smiling still because I'm happy, or simply is the action from the facial muscles.

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

never mind

I did something terrible, making the situation even unbearable.
Making myself more enemies.

The wounded heart, hurting by the lies and betrayal, who can bear?
The wounded heart, hurting by someone you've truly given your heart to, who can bear?


Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Future me, please have a look

hey, I wish somewhere in the future, when I scrolled back this post, I can smile and say, 
it's finally over. 

I will tell myself, the agony has gone, the lifelessness has passed, the tears has dried up, the aching has stopped, but the love persists..


Saturday, September 12, 2015

K Lang

So finally, today is the day, when I'm finally leaving this place.
I've been hated this place so much;
I've been working my way to not stay in this place as far as I could;
I've been feeling more alone and isolated in this deadly place;
I've been shedding much more tears as far as I could remember compare before;
so much heartbroken, so much isolation, so much slanders, so many haters..
and I'm staying the last night in this room.
But, feeling complicated.