I'm the one who bring you troubles & sadness..

"" I'm just a burden..

a big burden..

full of resentment...

so why don't just throw away??

I'm really pity you to carry it which brings no benefit..""

I'm always craving more..

take for granted of what i have..

making people around me sad..

those who care will only receive my cold sight..

and silence...

that's why people around me are getting lesser..

I'm such useless..

good-for-nothing..

blaming them for not  giving me the best..

but what I'd repay??

nothing..

I'm just a burden..

a big burden..

full of resentment...

so why don't just throw away??

I'm really pity you to carry it which brings no benefit..

so..you can choose to throw it..

at this moment..

who cares??

I'm not belong to this society..

not this reality..

maybe not this world....

nobody cares...

I'm being alone for such a long time..

carry on with my new life..

totally new life..

with new faces around me..

rejected the same faces in the past..

but who cares??

I don't go for them..

they too, just leave me in their past..

nobody will come towards me again..

I'm not the one who rejected the world..

rejected the people..

is the feeling of alienated made me do so..

always the voice tells me that " you're alone.."

and the voice told me

" don't ever think that they will remember the past with you.."

" don't ever think that they will treat you with their true hearts.."

nobody is true..

nobody..

and I'm the one..

meeting new people with big smiles and laughter..

with humor with  'sincere' with whatever they want..

so what??

we just meet once..

for the whole life...

it is not necessary for them to know so much of me..

I'm not belong to this society..

not this reality..

maybe not this world....

I'm S.U.C.K.S!

yeah..

I admit it.

I'm sucks..

why am I feeling so terrible??

I don't know..

blaming for someone? or myself?

I'm just bullshit..

damn..

what the hell is going on now?

this post definitely dirty my blog..

so what??

feeling so DAMN now..

I　HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!

turn away.

"" I'm just too sad that I'm a nobody 

that you can simply and easily turn away from. ""

 

 once..twice..trice...

again and again..

 how many times that will make me use to it?

how many time I have to bear with it.

walked away when I was talking half way..

when you're bad in mood..

but can you have some respect to me?

is it because of my special identity that made you treat me in this way?

is it my special identity that i've to bear with your temper?

And, will you treat others in the same way?

or you think I'm alright when looking at your back with the not-yet-finish-lines?

I just need you to understand..

even though I'm doing like shit...

but i did it all because of you..

am I supposed to carry all the burdens?

you can ask me to shut up if you don't like.

it is better than walk away.

I know I can't comfort you with any supporting words

even though i tried as much..

it's okay.

you can ask me to stop trying and leave you alone.

rather than leave me behind with the tears in my eyes..

can you feel it?  the ache inside..

can you hear it? the sound of heartbroken..

can you see it? the disappointment in my eyes..

no.. you can't.

since you decide to turn your back..

yea..

I'm just too sad that I'm a nobody that you can simply and easily turn away from.

 is it the way u treat me??

Japan - reach our love to the needy

"" we know that the disaster that happened in Japan 

is not a coincidence or an accident

as it was stated in the bible

and we too know that the people in Japan should turn back to you after all. ""

The prayer for Japan,

Dear Father,

we thank you for your great love that pouring down on us,

and to the people around us.

we too thank you for the protection in this generation.

dear Lord,

I'm here to pray for the people who suffered in Japan,

we know that the disaster that happened in Japan 

is not a coincidence or an accident

as it was stated in the bible

and we too know that the people in Japan should turn back to you after all.

Jesus, we know that you love all the people,

you love the people in Japan.

and you are the savior that brings them to the heaven. 

your anointing must be on them

and they shall glorify in the name of Jesus.

Dear Father, forgive the people that don't know your name

and bless them as you bless your people

as they will be in Christ and shout your name on the days coming.

Thank you, Father.

In Jesus name we pray,

Amen

 

all the pain shall bring away in the name of Jesus!

RESIGN!!! whoohoo...

"“ actually I miss my students lar..

especially K2 P1 P2 cute cute students..

let me hug, sit on my lap, ask me to read story for them..

they are just SOOOoooooOOo cute! ”"

yes!

finally resign..

but not yet..

still have to work for the last week..

and at least I've learnt one thing..

饭可以乱吃，话不可乱说 ( is better you eat wrong food than say wrong word )

although I sacked my boss,

but I know I got wrong at first..

but please..I'm a newbie!!

how can she being not understanding?!

never mind..

school and the real society are totally different..

so I just be obedient and back to the school to study..

 working?

 or study??

actually I miss my students lar..

especially K2 P1 P2 cute cute students..

let me hug, sit on my lap, ask me to read story for them..

they are just SOOOoooooOOo cute!

although they will being mischievous too...

and P3 P4 P5..

those who chat a lotz with me..

love the time being among the students...

never mind..

we will somehow meet up one day..

remember to study and be nice,

my lovely students! C :

I ❤ U

"" Thanks papa for sending me to work every morning,

Thanks mama for preparing breakfast & lunch in the early early morning.

Thanks dajie for your toner, moisturizer & xiao yin.

Thanks Jun for the company & prayer. ""

hehe..

that is the first time I said so..

but true, I love them..

for the past 2 months,

I always be with them..

from the time I went interview,

started my first job,

until now, going to resign soon..

they always be with me..

Thanks papa for sending me to work every morning,

Thanks mama for preparing breakfast & lunch in the early early morning.

Thanks dajie for your toner, moisturizer & xiao yin.

Thanks Jun for the company & prayer.

Thankiew very very much.

you know I'm too shy to show my love =p

but I really appreciate what you had done for me.

I will try to be obedient and nice. Earn more and give more pocket money. XD

past tense

"" some of them increase their footsteps,

walk swiftly..in and out of my life..

some of them..

stay for a couple of time..

and too, walk away in the end..

nobody would stay.. ""

past tense..

yea..

people that passed across my life,

are always past tense to me..

some of them increase their footsteps,

walk swiftly..in and out of my life..

some of them..

stay for a couple of time..

and too, walk away in the end..

nobody would stay..

was it a curse to me?

walked to school alone and still, came out alone??

where are you? my love one..

the person that I care and I give out my heart?

...

ending up blocking me in the net..

this is what I get for the hard work of the past 5 years?

fine, I accept it and that's it for me.

sack U

stupid idiot you..

I'm going to FIRE  you soon.

Let's wait and see!!