听说爱情。擦肩而过

总是到了夜深人静，各样思绪就不断侵入我脑袋。潜意识其实不抗拒，反而喜欢安静聆听内心的自我。真的很忙碌了，每晚都是累得快不行倒头就睡。很庆幸，周末的我，怎么都能熬夜腾出自己的空间，来点心灵滋补。不久前有个交际泛泛的朋友形容我，是一个会想很多，却碍于没有人理解也把很多想法埋藏起来的人。我没有承认，虽然我的落寞，好大原因是找不到共享的人。说穿了，大家为着生活忙碌打拼，又有谁愿意花那时间听你无谓的乱调呢？

I don't need a reason to be happy

It's been two weeks after returned to KL, one week after the new semester started. I would say I have my life living wonderful. Early return is just another best decision I've made. I guess this is the feeling of attachment, sense of belonging. Still remember how lost I felt when the first year coming to the end and I had to travel back to JB. Even I was born in JB, KL is more like a comfortable place for me, or to be more precise, UM, the life in the campus is more comfortable after all. 

I did has a real terrible emotion before the new semester started when the stress once again laying heavily on my shoulders, so much fear for what is to come. But all the horrible feeling just disappear when things actually started in quite a way that I can handle. Even it's just a week, everything seems familiar as if I have doing all this as the routine of my life. It's a good sign. I'm happy.

失而复得

最后的结论始终是--我不是宅女。花了大半天的时间追完偶像剧，真的只有想吐的感觉，真差劲。虽然有时还是不自禁让自己陷进电视剧情景，可是还是控制不让自己花痴，就算二十是当值花痴期。 结果觉得自己严重虚度光阴，太糟糕了。结果不知道提早回来，是不是个错误。结果竟然给情绪制造那么大的空间，极度发挥它的效应。

准备？

说白了只是篇没有心理准备，就写下的东西，还以为我能够。还是太习惯被情绪左右吗？虽然是进步了，但还是免不了那些许的挣扎吧，说些许，还蛮心虚的。上帝非要，非要把情绪放在女人身上吗？