BAD day

"" I don't know..

U keep saying I'm arrogant, I'm ego, I'm self-centered...

but I don't know what to do now.. ""

have a really bad quarrel with my parents..

that's all...

what i can't understand..

why are them keep helping the church to attack me without understand the whole situation?

church doesn't represent God..

why are them never believe the church members could have make something wrong?

they are men..not God..

they may do wrong...

my parents..who condemned me..

made me hate that church..

does them doing the right thing?

does this improve my relationship with God?

I don't know..

U keep saying I'm arrogant, I'm ego, I'm self-centered...

but I don't know what to do now..

I don't know which Christian I can speak now.

because, for me...

the Christians are just like another businessman or sales man..

I can't feel the sincerity anymore..

I hate all this..

DAD and MUM...

why are  you not standing at my side when I was hurt?

why are you don't talk softly to me when I really did wrong?

the person who serve God should be blessed..

but why can't I feel the bless?

what I only received are your bad words, 

who told me I'm an unfilial daughter 

if

I don't follow your words..

and all the scold, the condemnation, the shout..

U hurt me even more..even deeper...

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God,

just tell me..

what shall I do now?

are you going to heal my wound??

tell me if I'm wrong..

I will never listen from men but from you..

if you don't want me to lose my faith in you..

talk to me..please..

just...talk to me....

Almost DEFEATED~~~

"" The more you scold, the more they hate you, & the more they being naughty..

They need, you know? 软硬兼施 ( ruan yin jian shi)

So, the boy keep testing my patience, ""

Oh no!

How can a kid being such mischievous..

Standard two..8 years old...

haiz..

The worst thing is children nowadays cannot scold..

The more you scold, the more they hate you, & the more they being naughty..

They need, you know? 软硬兼施 ( ruan yin jian shi)

So, the boy keep testing my patience,

Use some childish way, or children way..

like pinch his face as the punishment ( which I learnt from another young teacher)

but it does not work for long time..

however, Thanks God that i held back..

take a deep breath whenever I feel like throwing temper on him..

trying to be nice to him..

treat him gently..

haha..

nice to know that I haven't defeat by all my little ANGELS ( or should I call them demon??)

haven't show my true colour..hehe

never mind..

it's okay..

U, all little boys and girls!

I will conquer U one day in your future..

to let you obey me!

let's wait and see!! C:

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actually children nowadays are really pityful..

force to do study..

do homework..

exam on March but need to prepare now..

what the heck...!

when I was their age,

I only do the revision one day before..

UPSR BM is the only subject I study for few days in my primary life..

no playing, no hobby, no even story books..

Is the text books so important to them??

really sympathized with them..

my tuition center..

the youngest age is 6..

I wonder how to make a kid to sit still for their homework for such a long period..

but so what?

I can do nothing...

I'm just thinking that one of the main reason to cause their attitudes problem,

is the pressure given by their parents and the teachers..

so, they can just rebel..

too bad..haiz..

My New Experience --- Work as Tuition teacher

"" ask them to do simple work..but..

"laoshi, wo bu hui!" ( "Teacher, I don't know how to do!" )

"laoshi, zen yang zuo!" ( "Teacher, how to answer!" )

"laoshi, guo lai!"  ( "Teacher, come over here !" )

"laoshi, laoshi...!" ( "Teacher, teacher...!" ) ""

First day working as a part time tuition teacher..

of course is after all ups and downs..

not that bad actually..

the two cute little K2 girls are really like angels..

cuter than yueyue at least ( no offend =p )..

haha...

first day joining this family..

I just given some simple job...

-to take care the 'homework class'

-childcare

but I'd to replace a P3 & P4 Maths class when Teacher Regine was not able to come back in time after her meeting..

First time I found out how hard maths can be..

no..is how hard to teach maths..

until I gonna vomit..

simple addition do 10 questions can get wrong for more than half..

oh gosh...

ask them to do simple work..but..

"laoshi, wo bu hui!"

"laoshi, zen yang zuo!"

"laoshi, guo lai!"

"laoshi, laoshi...!"

( "Teacher, I don't know how to do!" )

( "Teacher, how to answer!" )

( "Teacher, come over here !" )

( "Teacher, teacher...!" )

@.@ dizzy...

though, it was a nice experience..

the first time I show my gentleness for this long period ( I know, it's just 5 hours..)

try to be good to everyone..

to the cute one..and of course the mischievous one..

I think I will get along with them...very well..

hmm..yea..I have the confidence..

as I don't get angry with any of their bad words..

but using my humor to let them obey me.. 

I think I have my way..

a way different from others teacher..

to make them listen to me...

haha..don't believe me??

let's just see..