my return..

"" feeling alone.

i wonder where is God,

to carry me through the dilemma & the sorrow. ""

it has been 2 months after my last post..

staying in boarding college most of the time.

Even i grabbed the chance to back JB,

i will surely have piles of tasks.

the summary for past 2 months:

I've baptized in Christ to turn a totally new man.

it has been decades i never receive a mountain of presents & blessings.

it was a wonderful day though.

& I'm still living in Christ with the mighty strength He gave me.

yet, i still haven't join the church in Negeri Sembilan.

i'm indecisive to take the first step.

feeling alone.

i wonder where is God,

to carry me through the dilemma & the sorrow.

I'd broke up with my 2 years boyfriend.

was it hurtful or painful?

maybe.. a little bit?

or i guess..no??

cruel or cold-blooded?

that's right.

i guess i don't even have a right to feel guilty or heartbroken.

can't wait to end the journey,

yet when it actually come to the terminal,

i can't hold back my tears.

2 years can be nothing or everything.

having a little conflicts with my friends.

again..

i thought it will never happen again.

but i'm facing another crush in my friendship...once again..

chels is the only one i can still get along..

ooi is trying to understand my language..

& i'm trying hard to mend the relationship with her too.

the rest...i don't know..

I'm really sick of it!

tell me what to do, Am?

i scare i will lose the bet..

the relationship with my family is pretty well.

i did called them most of the time.

crapping, my life here, my new experiences but

not much of troubles.

come on..i'm not going to make them worry about me.

unless something colossal did happened.

from what i'd been going through.

family is still your true backbone that will never breakdown.

i love you guys, my family.

2 and the half month be in KMNS,

i'd used to the life here.

just a little grumbles and complaints here and there.

like the shortage of water,

unsatisfactory towards certain lecturers,

& the punctual morning calls.

i can still cope with the rest.

that's all from me so far. i will be in JB in a short time.