let go

i'm not pessimist 

but just allow me to post this

i'll surely be alright the next day.

yep

i lost.

not even enter final.

not counting how much time i've spent on it

not counting how much effort i've put in it

thx Goh for the small but warm shoulder

so sorry to wet it

thx ML for the big hug

telling i'm being loved

but where are you when you saw my teardrops?

watching like a stranger

with the cold deep eyes

what i hope is just an alright from you

but why are you refuse to say that

why are you looking at me as if none of your business?

it hurts

seriously hurt

i thought i can be tough

i thought nobody will reveal it

i thought you're the forever secret in me

but i just cannot help it

you choose to distance from me

when i need you the most.

i failed.

fail to see through you.

and is no longer a matter

as i'll put it an end

i never bear to let go

but the pain leave me no choice.

i hate the me denying how much i cared.

为什么我要自取其辱??