三月约定

Such a big relief back to home. The feeling is just like..taking a short leave in workplace, though I have not experience it. Such a short break, but I'm so gonna recharge myself before I'm back to the war.

Such a long break ever since I really pick up any responsibility to organize an event. The one I could ever remember is back to Form 5, also a concert. The evidence that I've not change too far. I used to say I will not take up any leader role if God has not placed me on such position. I just hate myself being a horrible dictator, a solution to run away from my personality. God has constantly refine me but I hardly believe myself can play a good role in such position anymore. If is not for Dayao, if is not for the senior who encouraged and looked high on me, if is not for the people I treasure, if is not for the dream I have in this grand concert... 

Music, my love

So proud to present my 2 new self-composed songs! Being a busy medical student with a hectic life, one thing I've learnt to really be grateful is the time I have for things I love and for myself. Adapting myself so much better now allowing me to put down my books and spent the whole week just to produce two songs. Such a crazy idea if I were to do it in my first year super stress life. Not the first time composing songs but the first time really be serious in every steps. From the ideas of the songs, genres, lyrics to melodies. Editing lyrics and the melodies so many times just to get the best of all though it might not be the best among the really good songs.

Not a good guitar player but trying to come out with a good accompaniment, not a good singer but trying to sing with the real feeling, not a good song writer but trying to write a song with story, no professional devices for song recording but still trying best to produce a good demo with slightly low quality. After all, I really enjoy the process. 

Not sure when is the next time for the song recording, probably not so soon when I foresee the busy life in preparing Dayao concert. Really praying hard for it.

Hate to do calculation or countdown, but this is human nature to somehow be caring of things which have been buried deep down.

I'm surprise. I'm covering well, so far.

结果又到了半夜三更，最emo的时候，太糟糕了。
好了，不说了，睡了。

miss you

trying to update my blog using phone and realize it's just way to troublesome. Anyway, I hope I can sing it well one day, the not too slumber unpluck song. IMY.

When I cry

A very sweet sharing from my dear sister in Christ. Such a big comfort from the lyrics.

I'm all alone

What people comment about me is that I'm a loner or a soloist.
Yes, I'm well-off alone, like what she described me.
love to being in my own world, doing stuffs that people will never appreciate, having thoughts that people might not understand. I know I'm different, and I know I'm always do.
Even when thing messed up, I will keep it all to myself. 
But life changed me. Too many warm hearts transformed me.

归属感，真实

今天好像比较闲了，是应该要更新我的近况了，尤其上次那个有点emo的post之后，哈哈。
真的真的，很不好意思，让爱我关心我的人担心了。这样的经历，我知道上帝要我成长。回到家人的怀抱，妈妈的祷告释放了我，让我察觉心里之所以纠结背后真实的原因。上帝再次用歌咏的胜利提醒我他对我的爱，是不能做比较的。我还没有完全复原，但我知道上帝的爱与周围人的关怀，会让我更加茁壮成长，我一定要变得更加强大，才能安慰身边失丧的灵魂。。
因为爱，是上帝给我们的天性。

家，是避风港

有谁还不知道的话，我回家了 。其实只是短短一个周末周日，可是这次回家我真的很开心。我是坏孩子，平时玩耍时都不见影子，只有在跌倒流血时才会跑回家哭闹。
而这一次，又摔跤了吧？真的好像过得不怎么好。。其实明明应该很开心的，可是不知怎的，心里堆积了一堆情绪，怎么理都理不清，只想逃。。